I was inspired to draw this one day and it wouldn't go away from my head until I did.
Honestly I wasn't sad at all when I drew it. (21st of Sept)
Sketched by hand, the rest of it was done in Paint Tool SAI
Please no short or stupid comments. You should not feel obligated to comment the pic if you don't want to.
I kind of didn't want to submit it because I don't want people to feel sorry for me. But I gave in because I want to help people realise what your words actually mean to people. People like me.
The left side, obviously depressing and hateful thoughts. The brighter words is what I think of myself, the darker is what people have actually said to me. Leading to my very low self esteem.
The right side, is my positive thinking. It hasn't been at it's best lately. I can nearly always find the bright side in everything but sometimes it's just really hard. The brighter words is what people have actually said to me, most from the same person. And the darker blue words is what I actually think of/to myself.
As you can clearly see.
People can be assholes.
This is something I've had to deal with my whole life. As far as I can remember people have gone out of their way to make me feel awful. There was no such thing as avoiding or ignoring them. Every kid in school had something against me.
And now that I'm an adult? Well things are definitely better. But I still think very low of myself. I have barely any confidence in anything I do. People still insult me and attack the fading list of things I like about myself. Sure there's the nice person every now and again who will stop me in the street, or confront me at work and tell me I'm pretty, or online you'll tell me you like my pics. But it's really hard for those nice few people to stand out from a group of people I know that hate me just because I'm different.
Anyone can and will hate you for any reason.
Don't dwell on it. Don't let it affect the way you are. There's people that love you just the way you are. There's people around the world that would love to have someone exactly like you for a best friend.